August
Life / Big Changes
I am going to start with my life changes first because, even though this all occurred over the last week, it has taken up all my memory of August and I can’t really think about much else:
I broke up with my fiance.
We have been together for almost 5 years and engaged for one. I found out he cheated on me. I had suspected him before but never had proof and he denied it so I always wrote it off as be being paranoid. He still denies it but I now have enough proof that I believe it.
Weirdly enough I am not devastated, or angry. I am almost relieved. Which leads me to believe I did the right thing. His drinking has been getting worse and we have been fighting a lot and I was so conflicted. I had considered ending it before but didn’t want to just “give up” on our relationship. But this is big and I can’t overlook it and so now we are done.
I don’t know how things are going to go from here. We played on sports teams together almost every night of the week, and we own a lot of things jointly. So right now he is living in the basement and we will probably have to figure it out next week. But for now we are just getting used to not being with each other all the time.
Its weird and I have moments when I struggle and break down, but overall I am doing much better than I would have expected. The only big thing I have done is that I cut off my hair. In a braid the donation pony tail was 14 inches long. So a BIG change. But the only thing keeping me from cutting it before was that I wanted it long for the wedding. Now that there will be no wedding I cut it off! I will post pictures tomorrow or later this week!
Alright, thats enough about depressing stuff. Onto the bookish items:
Books Read:
- A Conjuring of Light (Review | Amazon | Goodreads)
- Heroine’s Journey (Review | Amazon | Goodreads)
- Eligible (Review | Amazon | Goodreads)
- Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Amazon | Goodreads)
- Sheets (Review | Amazon | Goodreads)
- A Tale of Two Mommies (Review | Amazon | Goodreads)
- A Tale of Two Daddies (Review | Amazon | Goodreads)
- Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Review | Amazon | Goodreads)
- Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Amazon | Goodreads)
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I only read 2 of the 4 books that were on my tentative August TBR, but I am super happy with 9 books (even if 2 were picture books and 1 was a graphic novel!) I listened to the 3 Harry Potters on Audiobook. (Jim Dale is amazing!!)
Goals:
At the end of August I was actually only at 57 books but I already read one this month.
Posts:
- July Wrap Up & August Plans
- The Book Addiction Tag
- Friday Face-Off: Starry Sky
- Opinions? Blog Aesthetics
- Friday Face-Off: Mask
- The Supporter Award
- The Office Book Tag
- Friday Face-Off: Door
- Harry Potter You’re Not Good Enough Book Tag
- Blogger Recognition Award #2
- Random things I need to talk about
- Top 100 YA Books on Goodreads
- Friday Face-Off: Legend
- OwlCrate August 2018 Unboxing
- 20 Questions Book Tag #2
- Top Ten Tuesday – Most Memorable Books I Read in School
- Mystery Blogger Award #5
September:
Tentative TBR:
These two are rolling over from last month, but who knows if I will actually get to them:
- Rat Queens, Vol. 2: The Far Reaching Tentacles of N’rygoth (Amazon | Goodreads)
- Shift (Amazon | Goodreads)
These two I expect I will get through the Audio books:
- Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Amazon | Goodreads)
- Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (Amazon | Goodreads)
I already read this one, but I need to right the review still:
Life:
Besides figuring out what I am doing with my life now that I am single again, it will also be my 27th birthday on the 16th. I don’t really have any plans but I expect it will be a rough month.
Oh wow I’m so sorry! That sucks but I think you did the right thing and you believe that too since like you said, you aren’t devastated but relieved. I hate cheating and just don’t get how someone could do that to someone they are supposed to love! Hang in there and I can’t wait to see your haircut! Good for you!💕💕
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Sorry to hear your news.
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Oh my gosh, so sorry to hear this news☹ Breakups are hard, especially when you’ve been together for so long. I hope you take time out to do something nice for yourself😊
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I am sorry for everything that is going on, but if you need someone to vent to just reach out.
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I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Even though it’s hard, you’ve made right the decision and I know things will get better for you.
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I’m so sorry 😦 stay strong!
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I’m sorry to hear you went through such a rough time. But I always believe in listening to your feelings, and it sounds like your heart is telling you that you did the right thing.
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I know words aren’t adequate but I’m so sorry, Brittan! Sending all the love! ❤ And I can't wait to see your new hair!
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Shit that sucks. I know how that feels so if you want to talk Brittany let me know! Can’t wait to see fabulous pictures of your new haircut ❤ Sending you tons of hugs ❤
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I can’t wait to see your new haircut….
All my love to you ❤
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I’m so sorry to hear about the breakup. I know it’s hard but it sounds like you did the right thing. Hang in there and things will get better. I can’t wait to see pictures of your new hair cut!! 💕
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So sorry to hear what you’re going through. It sounds like if you were relieved then you made the right decision though. That is a huge change and it may be hard for a bit but things will definitely get better.
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So sorry to hear about the breakup. Cheating is awful, but I hope everything works out with figuring out what happens next for divying up assets and all. Oh, and I too look forward to seeing your new haircut photos.
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I’m sorry you have to go through that. But if you feel relieved then that tells you it was for the best! It will take time since you were together for so long but keep being strong and you’ll get through it!💗 I’m rereading the Harry Potter books as well, I’m on the last one and I kind of want to cry because I want to reread them all over again😭😂 I Hope this month brings you better things💞
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I am so sorry to hear this news. I can’t even imagine what you are going through right now. Although, if you feel relieved then it means that it was the right thing to do. It takes a lot of courage to end something that’s been so important in your life, for so long. I know that things are probably really scary and stressful right now. Take a lot of time for yourself. Yay, for cutting your hair. That’s a big step in the right direction. I’m thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts. ❤
Also, great reading month! I hope that September will be great, even though things are tough right now. ❤
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Well Brittany trust your instinct and if you rather feel relieved it was indeed the right choice. Of course you are sad and there will be ups and down. being together for 5 years you create habits and now you are lost. But you are strong and your decision to cut your hair show your determination to draw on a blank page. I am with you ❤
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That really sucks but you got to go with your instincts. I hope things brighten up for you! Take care of yourself!
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Oh goodness, I am so sorry he cheated on you but I am glad that you feel it was the right decision. I wish you the best of luck sorting everything out, and happy reading.
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I’m sorry to hear about you’re break up and while it’s difficult now it’s better to fine out what he is really like now instead after you marry him. I hope you have a good September 💜💜
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I’m really sorry to hear about what happened with your fiance. I feel like, when you feel relief after making a big decision, it’s usually a sign that it was the right one, even though I can imagine things are still tough for you. I hope things get better though ❤
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So sorry to hear about you and your fiancee. When you feel relief and not regret after a decision like that, it probably is for the best. You’re so stong. ❤ I hope things get better for you
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I am so sorry to hear that you have ended this relationship, but if you feel good about your decision, then you made the right one, even if it does hurt every now and then. I hope things get better for you and you find that person who you are meant to be with.
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I’ve been pretty shit on the blog hopping lately so didn’t get around to this post before you mentioned it in your shout out post. Just wanted to say two things: 1) well done on being 8 books ahead on your GoodReads challenge! YAY!, and 2) (I got excellent priorities 😉) Well done on making the tough decision to dump him *mental high five*.
Books before boys right?
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(apologies if you find this comment too direct and insensitive, but I originally had “dirtbag” instead of “him” but changed it the last minute just in case it was a step too far😉)
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dirtbag is fine 😂
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😂❤️
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